Friday, July 31, 2009
I think Addison just had an off night and Riley may have figured out that it is so much better to sleep during the night rather than screaming her little head off. Now if we could just get them on the same schedule, we could all get some decent sleep.
Tomorrow we are taking the girls to Sara's old childhood friend's baby shower. She is a lucky girl because we are giving her a bunch of the stuff the girls have outgrown, including extra newborn diapers for her little girl. We will buy her some new stuff of course but most of the girls' stuff is almost new since they grow so fast.
Sunday we are doing family pictures with the girls for their 3 month portraits and finally mommy and daddy will get in the pictures along with Aunt Sara. We have a busy weekend planned and I hope I will get my homework done around all of our plans. TGIF everyone!
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Now the screen is locked down and the buttons are covered in the medication syrup. Luckily, I have insurance but in this instance I was actually eligible for an upgrade on my phone. So now I have to wait for the phone to be shipped out. They said it probably won't arrive until Monday so I will be using one of our old phones until then. I may have lost all the numbers in my phone book so if you are reading this and I have your number, you might want to get in touch with me so I can put you back in my phone book.
Now on to the girls. They have both been great in the evenings with little fussing. I think the increase on their feedings is helping. Riley is still all mixed up on her schedule, awake at night and sleeping during the day. We really need to work on getting that switched around to a normal schedule. This takes effort on Sara's part and she will need to flip her schedule around as well. Until some changes are made, Riley will continue to do the same thing each day and won't learn the difference between night and day like Addison has. Since I'm not there during the day, I don't have the ability to keep Riley up so Sara will need to modify her schedule and Riley's schedule in order for this to work. Wish us luck that we can get this fixed soon.
School is going fairly well I am getting the easy stuff done during the week but the homework is pretty intense. I enjoy finance and numbers but I am not good at the actual statisical math applications so I will be meeting with my brother Steven once agian to get some help on the formulas. Only 4 more weeks to go in this class, then it is on to "Ethical, Legal, and Regulatory issues in Healthcare".
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Riley later that day after she had a blow out and had to change clothes
I want to thank Tess for giving me this Blogger award. I need to list the 7 things I am thankful for, and the 7 blogs I want to pass the award on to.
My 7 things are:
1. My beautiful twin girls (they are my number 1 favorite). I waited and dreamed of them for so long, I didn't know I would be blessed with two at once and I am so glad we were blessed times 2. I can't wait to learn more about these precious girls.
2. My dh (dear husband). I am thankful for a man who loves me for who I am. He even still loves me after I got us into the mess of having two babies at once. (what were we thinking, lol)
3. My job. In the though economic times I am glad I have a good paying job that gives us free school and I am able to finish my education through my masters degree for free.
4. My friends. Both my in real life friends and my online friends from SK and blogger friends. Many have supported me through infertility, pregnancy, and they help with advice whenever I need some guidance. I don't know where I would be without you all.
5. My family. Many family members have stepped up with help and support while we raise these girls. They are quite the handful and we can always use some extra hands. My sister Sara for being their nanny and taking care of them night and day. For Linda for late night shifts she has put in. My mom for staying overnight shifts despite her epilepsy and my Dad for the emotional support and letting me bounce ideas off of him.
6. Peanut Butter M & M's and Rolos. A girl has to have her chocolate and I hide these little treats in my desk at work. The pumping and breast feeding affords me the ability to eat as much as I like without gaining a pound.
7. Lastly, I am thankful for Zantac, Gripe Water, Tylenol and any other baby medication or aids. Without them I think I would lose my mind.
The blogs I would like to pass the award on to are:
Life With Boys
Just Multiply by 2
Missing Moira Mae
Twins and a Toddler
Loving Rylie, Missing Sophie, Loving Finn
The Bones Family
So come on blogger friends, what are you thankful for???
Luckily, my mom came over to clean our house when we were at work and that was a big help for me when I came home. She had all the bottles cleaned and ready to be refilled so I was able to sit back with the girls and hug and kiss them rather than worrying about getting the house in order. I was even able to finish my Finance paper at work so I could help watch the girls while Jesse finished his homework. My mom didn't want to fight the rush hour traffic to go home so she stayed and helped me take care of the girls. The extra pair of hands really helped and the girls were well taken care of and comforted with my mom helping out. Addison was pretty fussy and wanted to be held and wanted to eat every hour. Maybe she needs more ounces in her bottle in the afternoon to feel satisfied because she was finishing each bottle fairly quickly and then wanting more. So I think I may up her bottles from 3 ounce to 4 ounces in the afternoon and see if that helps.
Riley and I had some bonding time. Finally I was able to get her back on the breast now that our Thrush is close to being gone. We may not get rid of the Thrush completely but at least it isn't bothering us very much anymore. Riley latched on to both sides and did fairly well at eating from the breast. I still think we both have some learning to do to make the feeding more efficient but she seemed to enjoy herself and I found the breast to be a good mommy weapon at calming her down. She seemed more content and calm eating from the breast then she does with the bottle. I hope we can keep it up and I can feed her through the breast at night and on the weekends and let Sara keep feeding through the bottle and maybe she will learn the difference between mommy and other people that feed her. I have tried Addison at the breast a few times but she has been too hungry to wait for the let down and didn't latch very well so we need a few more practice times where maybe I pump through my let down to help her feed better. That child does not have much patience so we will see if I can retrain her a little bit. Unfortunately, both girls have been spoiled by the bottle flow and it may take a while to get them used to eating from the breast but I am determined to do my best and give it a good effort.
I'm glad I have made it 3 months of pumping and my girls have had my milk since day 1. I really want to keep them on mommy's milk for another 4-6 months if I can. Maybe I will go longer but 9 months was really my ultimate goal, so we will see how things go. I do miss my sleep but I don't want my supply to drop since I have two mouths to feed so I continue to pump during the night. Part of me wonders what a long stretch of sleep would feel like but part of me is so used to broken sleep that my body doesn't even remember what 8 hours feels like.
My plan this week is to get my homework done early throughout the week at work so I don't feel so stressed and rushed at the end of the week. So if you all see me online, remind me to get back to my homework. Thanks for listening!
Monday, July 27, 2009
Jesse and I were on our own this weekend with the girls. My sister had a friend in town and enjoyed some time off from the girls. Friday night my mom Linda came out and helped Jesse with the girls until 12am while I got a good couple of hours sleep before I had to pump. From then the girls were pretty good. Addison has been consistently sleeping through the night. Riley was a little fussy but I was able to calm her down and hold her while she went back to sleep. I spent most of Saturday running around and doing our grocery shopping, laundry, and house cleaning. Right when I was ready to start some homework, the girls decided to be fussy. They were fussy all afternoon and into the evening. Jesse got Addison to sleep around 9 while I got my 4 hours of uninterrupted sleep. Riley went down as well but decided to get up at 12:30 with me pumping after daddy went to bed. Riley then proceeded to fuss from 12:30 until I finally got her to sleep at 5am. She had a bottle an hour from 12 to 4am and just seemed upset about everything. I tried the gripe water, gas relief, and finally Tylenol to help her feel better. Finally after the Tylenol, she was able to fall asleep. During that 4 hour stretch of time, both mommy and baby cried together. I was over tired and stressed out about the paper I needed to write the next day. I needed a good night sleep in order to be productive and Riley was just making that impossible. I'm not sure why she is so fussy at night. We keep her up during the day in hopes of her be able to sleep during the night but nothing is working. She is capable of sleeping 5-6 hour stretches once she falls asleep but that is usually in the early morning to late morning hours.
I spent Sunday trying to work on my homework and get the house work completed. I was sleep deprived and the girls were fussy through out the day. I was able to get part of my paper written but I have about half of it left to get done today. Then I can breathe a sigh of relief until next weekend when it is time to complete another assignment. Having newborn babies, working, and going to school is more work than I thought. I just hope things get easier as the girls get older and Riley gets on board with the sleeping at night thing. Wish us all luck.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
We discussed the medication situation and the doctor agreed that we should not have to wake a sleeping baby just to give her medication. Her medication scheduled has been changed from 0.3 ml every 6 hours to 0.6ml every 8 hours. This will allow her to sleep and drop a whole dose out of her schedule. Since Addison has not had anther episode, the plan is to keep her at the same dose even though her weight has gone up. Normally the medication would increase with her weight but the doctor wants to try and wean her off of it eventually so we will keep the same dose and as Addison gains weight the dose will become smaller and smaller for her weight until she doesn't need the medicine at all.
This is all great news and we are happy that she may outgrown this condition.
Friday, July 24, 2009
Addison also had a rough afternoon yesterday. When I got home from work she had just had a bottle and was starting to cry in her swing. I picked her up and held her for a while. We rocked and talked for a while until she finally fell asleep. I thought...finally I can get some stuff done around the house. Sara has been having a rough time with Riley sleeping at night so she has been dead tired during the day and that leaves my house a total disaster area when I come home from work. I enjoy holding the babies and spending time with them but they normally fall asleep after a little while and I can have a couple of hours to get my house presentable again. Well Addison only slept for 30 minutes and then woke up crying again. She didn't want to allow mommy to pump or get anything done. All the while, Riley was sleeping away. Apparently she thinks the afternoon is night time and she doesn't wake up to eat or anything. I was stressed and tired and I just wanted to get the house in order and get the bottles made for the night, but no dice there. Jesse finally relieved me when he came home and I got some work finished.
Addison proceeded to cry the entire afternoon into the evening and was still crying when I went to bed. Jesse had to hold her and take care of the crying from there. I got a report from Sara that Addison finally calmed down at some point and was asleep by 10pm. Addison didn't wake at all during the night and was still sleeping when I left close to 5am this morning. Riley did fall asleep while I was getting ready this morning but Sara is going to try and keep her up as much as possible today so she will be tired tonight and will allow mommy and daddy to get some sleep since Sara is off baby duty on the weekends. Sara did say that Riley was not fussy last night, she just wanted to be awake so maybe she isn't having trouble with Acid Reflux but I will keep and eye on her.
I take Addison to the cardiologist today at 3:00pm and I hope we get a good report on her heart. I will also ask about what to do with missing her medication as she sleeps. I will post an update when we get back.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Riley on the other hand was a monster in a baby costume again. She slept from 7pm until 12am. Woke up for a bottle and a fuss session. Sara got her back to sleep around 2am and she slept until 3:30 and woke again for a bottle and a fuss session. She was still fussing when I left the house at 5am. I'm starting to wonder if she is having a little bit of reflux because she is crying more and having the hiccups. She is also swallowing weird after she eats like she is trying to keep her food down. I'm thinking we need another peds appointment to have her checked out. Of course she is sleeping a bunch during the day because she is up all night so maybe she just needs to get her schedule figured out.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
I had to take my car in for an oil change and a look at the brakes. I had the brakes completely redone about 20,000 miles ago and the brakes have never felt right. I found out that the right side was almost completely worn while the left side had only 10% wear. How does that happen? I have no idea so I replaced the other side with another $200 dollars down the drain.
School is already giving me stress because I can't find as much time to do my homework as I used to. I have to find some time at work on break where I can have some quiet time to read my text books and work on my papers. I sure hope I can make it out of this finance class alive.
On to the girls, Addison slept almost all night starting at 7pm after her bath until well into the night where she had a feeding and then went back to bed and didn't wake again until about 5am. Riley on the other hand slept until 12am and thought it was time to get up and play and fuss off and on until after 7 in the morning. So we can win with one baby but not the other. So because Riley was up all morning, she slept all day and we all know what is in store for tonight again. Ugh...we are trying to get them on a better schedule and help them separate night time from day time. Addison seems to be getting that concept much better. I think the increased Zantac is really helping her out. We did give her some Maalox in the evening when she appeared to be having a little acid attack but she recovered quickly and went right to sleep after her bath.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Addison being sweet
Sara had another fun day dressing up the girls. They had cute little corduroy dresses with tights, bloomers, head bands, and little slippers when I came home from work. I just loved how cute they looked but Addison didn't want to pose for her pictures. She was really hungry and didn't want to be held up for any photo sessions.
The girls were good throughout the evening allowing me to get the dishes, laundry, and house work done. They even gave me extra time to do some homework. I'm sure I won't be so lucky to have extra time for homework like this very often. I just have to take it one day at a time and get as much done each time I get on the computer.
The girls went their first 6 hour stretch between feedings today. The only bad part was the stretch was from 4 am to 10 am. It would be better if they could go from 10pm to 4am, eat, and then go back down for another 3 or 4 hours. We would all get more sleep around here if that was the case. I guess we will keep working on the sleep routine and hope for the best.
Monday, July 20, 2009
I'm now in my third week back to work and our routine is getting into place more and more. I'm learning to live with little sleep as I still get up in the middle of the night to pump and help Sara with the girls. We are making progress on the girls sleeping in their cribs and so far the adjustment is going very well.
I start another online class tomorrow, Finance for health care. Now that sounds like another rousing good time. I will have to balance my school work while I am at work in order to maximize my time with the girls when I get home. Wish me luck that I will survive another 6 weeks of math. My graduation date is now set and I will be finishing my MBA/Health care Administration in March 2010! Then that is it, no more school as I don't plan to pursue a doctoral degree.Here are some more fun pictures of the girls.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
More pictures again mom?
I'm falling over
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Riley seemed to be more alert last night and more awake. I hope that meant she would be up for a while and be ready to get some good rest at night. I will have to check with Sara and see how the night went. Riley isn't usually the one who likes to be up and fussy at night, but the bath time relax routine seems to be helping her to have a solid relaxing routine before she goes to bed. We just need to get Addison on board and help her understand the difference between night and day.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
I want the girls to know how much I love them. It was a long journey to get them here safe and sound. I can still remember how overjoyed I was the morning I saw that positive pregnancy test. I was starting to feel like the cycle was a bust. The money, hard work, and hormones were down the drain. Part of me didn't even want to test that day to see another negative test, but I went ahead and tested anyway. When I finally picked up the test and saw the two most beautiful lines in the world, I could not be any happier. I cried and cried and stared at the test in disbelief. FINALLY it worked, finally we were going to have a family and a child I had wanted for a long time. Little did I know, we would be having two children.
My pregnancy started off beautifully with little morning sickness with only some early fatigue. At 16 weeks we started to realize that the pregnancy was high risk and there was a real chance that I wouldn't carry the girls to term. After I was put on bed rest, I remember wondering if I would even get my girls to a viable state. I was hesitant to have my friends and family plan the baby shower because I didn't want to jinx the situation. Would buying clothes and things for the girls be a bad idea. We didn't even know if my cervix would hold up. Luckily I got the girls past the "24" week viability stage and I could sigh a breath of relief. I still worked hard to get one more day and one more week past that point.
In my third hospital admittance, I was annoyed at having to stay in the hospital for the 3rd time. I was 30 weeks and 4 days pregnant at that point and I was past the 28 week mark where premature babies do much better. When I really sat down to think about it, I couldn't live with myself If didn't do what the doctors asked of me and I had the girls too early and something happened that I could of prevented by staying put. Sometimes I even wonder if I should have accepted magnesium one last time to keep the girls baking longer than the 32 weeks 6 days that I did. Would another week or two inside my womb made a difference in their NICU stay? All in all, I think I did a good job considering the circumstances. The girls are here and healthy when there are many mothers out there who lost their children earlier than I did or those that made it to full term but still didn't take their babies home. Why was I blessed to get 2 beautiful healthy girls (aside from Addison's heart trouble)? I thank God for what he has given to our family and I have to remind myself not to complain about the lack of sleep or constant crying, because I am lucky to have my girls and lucky to be a mom.
Addison and Riley...you have made mom so very happy and I can't wait to learn more about you both. I can't wait to see your personalities and learn what you like and dislike. We are learning and growing as a family and I am very happy with the path we are all on.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Riley with Sara...got to love that face!
Monday, July 13, 2009
I also called the pediatrician finally regarding the dosage on Addison's Zantac for her acid reflux. Thanks to a good online friend (Tkeys), we learned that the dosage should continue to go up with her weight. Addison seemed to be having more issues with the Acid, so the extra dosage should help alleviate her symptoms again.
Yesterday was a strange day. Addison slept most of the day, only waking for feedings and we tried to keep her awake but our efforts didn't work. Riley on the other hand, was a pill to say the least. She was cranky most of the day. She wanted to be held and wanted to scream and at about 7pm she screamed and cried for 3 hours straight. She finally got to sleep 11. So here is where the flip flop takes place. Because Addison had slept all day, she needed to be awake and scream through out the night while Riley went to sleep and slept until 5am this morning. So what an achievement to have one baby sleep for 6 hours for the first time, but the other baby wanted to be awake and cry. Why can't we get both girls on the same page. Didn't they each get the memo that they needed to be awake during the day (with little crying) and sleep during the night??? Maybe once we increase Addison's Zantac dosage, she will have some better nights here soon. I'm excited that we might be eliminating one of the night time feedings if this pattern continues.
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Riley Trying to Smile
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Now the size 1's are a little big on the girls and I am glad because they can spend a while in the size 1's and use up the large stock we have in those diapers. The only diapers we have bought for the girls were the few packages of preemie ones in the beginning. We didn't know how early the girls would be so we asked people not to buy that size. I am so glad that many friends and family purchased such a practical item such as diapers and it will be a long while before we have to purchase our own diapers. We have several several several cases of all the sizes all the way up to Pampers Cruisers. Thank you friends and family!!!!
On to another milestone. Addison is smiling like crazy now. It is so nice to see my baby girl recognize people and smile when we talk to her. I about cried the first time she did it and I could tell that it was a social smile rather than an involuntary one. Now she is doing it all day long and I just can't get enough of her beautiful smile. Now I haven't been able to catch one on camera yet but I hope to get one soon. Riley is not quite there, she even likes to stare at the wall instead of the person holding her, but I'm sure she will bless us with her smiles here soon.
My first week of work went well but I have to say I was completely exhausted on Friday night. Working full time and being a mom is a tough job. I hope to find a good balance here soon so I can enjoy Friday nights instead of walking around my house like a zombie.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
My pumping schedule now consists of pumping at 12:30am, 4:30am, 8:30am, 12:30pm, 4:30pm, and again 8:30pm. Instead of pumping 8 times a day like I used to, I am getting the same if not more milk out of 6 pumping sessions a day. At each session I get around 8 to 9 ounces. So I am averaging around 50+ ounces a day. The girls are only taking 2.5 ounces per feeding and they are down to 6-7 feedings a day. At the end of the day I have close to 8-15 extra ounces that I can freeze. At work I only have to pump 2 times which works out great in my schedule. I hope things continue to go well and I am still taking the Fenugreek to make sure my supply stays up. If I could ever get rid of this Thrush, I would put the girls back on the breast, but for now I have to be an exclusive pumper.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
I was able to get more sleep therefore I felt more rested at work today. We had more of a normal routine and I wasn't so stressed out by our childcare situation. I'm still missing the girls while I am at work, but as sad as it sounds, I am enjoying the little break I am getting away from the girls. The Adult interaction at work is nice and I have missed some of my co-workers so overall I am having a good time at work and getting back into the swing of things. Since my body is so used to little sleep, It is easier to get out of bed to go to work in the morning. Pre-children, I hated getting out of bed and I counted the days down until Friday knowing I would be able to sleep in on Saturday and Sunday. Now, sleep is not as important but I would love a long 8 stretch to sleep, but my pumping schedule won't allow for that. Or should I say, my bbs won't allow that to happen. I get engorged pretty easily since I have such a great milk supply. I am pumping an extra 8-15 ounces of milk each day that gets to go in the freezer so I should have a good amount frozen when I do decided to wean off the pumping. As it stands now, I would like them to get my milk at least until they are 9 months and maybe I can keep it up until they are a year old. That would be 10 months corrected age and I would be satisfied with that.
All in all, the whole family is adjusting to the changes of mommy and daddy back at work. Jesse has been staying up later at night to help with the 11pm feeding so he has been needing a nap when he comes home but the girls seem to want to nap at the same time so that gives me time to get the housework done and get myself prepared for the next day of work.
I get my new vacation time in September so maybe I can take a day or two off with the girls here and there and we are taking the girls on their first vacation to Wisconsin in December. We have some good things to look forward to.
Monday, July 6, 2009
In a way it was nice to be away and have a "break" from the girls. I have a different set of stresses at work but they can be more manageable. My day started with getting through my emails. When I opened outlook I had 1471 emails to get through. I guess when you are out of work for 6 months, your email really piles up. Luckily our phones had been reset several times at work so I only had 1 lonely voice mail to listen to. So after getting through the emails and showing off the pictures of the girls, I was able to get back to work. I quickly got back into the swing of things and got my first student registered for class. I felt like I hadn't missed a step.
Tonight may be rough as Linda will be tired from her night with the girls and her day at work herself. I hope we figure out a way for us both to get some sleep and we will have Sara back for tomorrow.
So Thursday night through Saturday night were complete disasters. The babies didn't want to sleep for anything and Addison was being a complete pill. My mom wasn't prepared for the lack of sleep at all. Now to back track, my mom has Epilepsy but she doesn't have seizures often unless their is an increased stress in her life. Well, 3 nights of no sleep spells stress for my mom and she had a seizure late Sunday morning. At least she had gone to go take a nap and she was in bed when it happened. I don't know what would of happened if she had one while taking care of the girls. Anyway, she is doing okay now but I couldn't have her watch the girls on Monday after what happened.
So after the seizure, Jesse and I went into freak out mode trying to figure out how we were going to get through the night and get some sleep before going to work and who was going to watch the girls on Monday. My step mom volunteered to come over and help with the night shift (bless her heart) and my friend Brea could come out at watch the girls. So we got the plan in motion and my step-mom came over and let me sleep all night so I could be awake and work the next day, but in the process, she didn't get much sleep. Addison is still cranky at night and isn't going much longer than a 2 hour stretch without crying or needing to feed. Riley can go 5 hours without waking up but Addison is making it hard for anyone to get sleep. I wish we could figure out what to do to help her sleep more.