Jesse and I were completely exhausted after the fuss weekend we had with the girls. We were both looking forward to being back at work to get a break from the girls (as bad as that sounds). We both had little time for homework and our assignments are due on Monday nights so we pushed out to our deadlines and we had no idea what to expect from the girls once we got home from work.
Luckily, my mom came over to clean our house when we were at work and that was a big help for me when I came home. She had all the bottles cleaned and ready to be refilled so I was able to sit back with the girls and hug and kiss them rather than worrying about getting the house in order. I was even able to finish my Finance paper at work so I could help watch the girls while Jesse finished his homework. My mom didn't want to fight the rush hour traffic to go home so she stayed and helped me take care of the girls. The extra pair of hands really helped and the girls were well taken care of and comforted with my mom helping out. Addison was pretty fussy and wanted to be held and wanted to eat every hour. Maybe she needs more ounces in her bottle in the afternoon to feel satisfied because she was finishing each bottle fairly quickly and then wanting more. So I think I may up her bottles from 3 ounce to 4 ounces in the afternoon and see if that helps.
Riley and I had some bonding time. Finally I was able to get her back on the breast now that our Thrush is close to being gone. We may not get rid of the Thrush completely but at least it isn't bothering us very much anymore. Riley latched on to both sides and did fairly well at eating from the breast. I still think we both have some learning to do to make the feeding more efficient but she seemed to enjoy herself and I found the breast to be a good mommy weapon at calming her down. She seemed more content and calm eating from the breast then she does with the bottle. I hope we can keep it up and I can feed her through the breast at night and on the weekends and let Sara keep feeding through the bottle and maybe she will learn the difference between mommy and other people that feed her. I have tried Addison at the breast a few times but she has been too hungry to wait for the let down and didn't latch very well so we need a few more practice times where maybe I pump through my let down to help her feed better. That child does not have much patience so we will see if I can retrain her a little bit. Unfortunately, both girls have been spoiled by the bottle flow and it may take a while to get them used to eating from the breast but I am determined to do my best and give it a good effort.
I'm glad I have made it 3 months of pumping and my girls have had my milk since day 1. I really want to keep them on mommy's milk for another 4-6 months if I can. Maybe I will go longer but 9 months was really my ultimate goal, so we will see how things go. I do miss my sleep but I don't want my supply to drop since I have two mouths to feed so I continue to pump during the night. Part of me wonders what a long stretch of sleep would feel like but part of me is so used to broken sleep that my body doesn't even remember what 8 hours feels like.
My plan this week is to get my homework done early throughout the week at work so I don't feel so stressed and rushed at the end of the week. So if you all see me online, remind me to get back to my homework. Thanks for listening!
18 months in review
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